nice guys

Nice guys finish last

and all alone

thats why i`m sitting here

lonely and on my own,

a cold hearted woman

took advantage of me

the fake love she showed

was all I wanted to see,

the time I spent alone

to let my mind clear

reassured my faith

love is still welcome here

-Jeff Weiner

Love Actually

* Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength, while loving someone deeply gives you courage.
- Lao Tzu

* A man reserves his true and deepest love not for the species of woman in whose company he finds himself electrified and enkindled, but for that one in whose company he may feel tenderly drowsy.
-George Nathan

* Absence diminishes mediocre passions and increases great ones, as the wind extinguishes candles and fans fires.

* First love is only a little foolishness and a lot of curiosity.
- George Bernard Shaw

* Friendship often ends in love; but love in friendship - never.
- Charles Colton

* I have found the paradox, that if you love until it hurts, there can be no more hurt, only more love.
- Mother Teresa

* I love you, not only for what you are, But for what I am when I am with you.
-roy croft

* Love is an irresistible desire to be irresistibly desired.
- Robert Frost

* When love is not madness, it is not love.

* The one who loves the least controls the relationship.

* Never take a wife till thou has a house (and the fire) to put her in.
- Benjamin Franklin

* Men want a woman whom they can turn on and off like a light switch.
- Ian Flaming

* Loving is not just looking at each other, its looking in the same direction.

* Between man and woman there's no friendship possible. There's passion, enmity, worship and love - but no friendship.
- oscar wilde

What drives me ?

It was a new kind of thrill mixed with little creativity when i first shaved my beard about 12 years ago. After all these years and scratching my cheeks hundreds of times, i am still to figure out what drives me every morning to get up and get ready to move ! Its not about college or job as they don't occupy people for 24 hours a day. Then what's it that i have been pursuing 24*7 for all these years ?

Most of the times its some ambition which causes restlessness in a person. Thinking about myself, i don't remember having any ambition other than my childhood dream of becoming a secret agent.

Is it love or hate then ? I can't decide but i get emotional for any trivial issue and that ruins my whole day. So sad i never had any chance to get close to someone, so as of now i love myself. That is odd, isn't it ? I mean admitting that !

Anyway, hate is an emotion too, maybe much intense than love for me. I know that is bad but its really hard to let go especially when there's injustice or cheating.

Interesting Quotes

* A dog thinks : hey this people feed me, love me, provide me with a nice warm dry house, pet me and take good care of me. They must be Gods.
A cat thinks : hey this people feed me, love me, provide me with a nice warm dry house, pet me and take good care of me. I must be God.

* What's in a name ? That which we call a rose by any other name would smell as sweet.
-William Shakespeare

* You never pull the trigger untill you know you will win.

* A genius is one who can do anything except make a living.

* There is nothing more dangerous than a resourceful idiot.

* So long as we love, we serve; so long as we are loved by others, we are indespensable and no man is useless while he has a friend.

* Once you have tasted flight, you will always walk the earth with your eyes turned skywards, for there you have been and there you will long to return.
-Leonardo d Vinci

* Wit is more necessary than beauty and i think no young woman ugly that has it and no beautiful woman agreeable without it.

* A doubtful friend is worse than an enemy. Let the man be one thing or the other, and then we know how to meet him.
-Easop

* People think you can't be clever if you have breasts.
-Kelly Brooks

* For every moment of triumph, for every instance of beauty, many souls have to be trampled.

* Its a well documented fact that guys will not ask for directions. Thats why millions of sperm cells are required to locate single female egg, despite the fact that the egg is, relative to them, the size of Wisconsin.

* People who think about art as investment are pathetic.

* Life is an art of drawing without an eraser.

* Democracy is being allowed to vote for the candidate you dislike least.

* I'd always enjoyed acting but modelling was so time-consuming and lucrative i didn't pursue acting.
- Jerry Hall, model

* Hunger and fear are the only realities in a dog's life, an empty stomach makes a fierce dog.

* Science has not yet mastered prophecy. We predict too much for the next year and yet far little for the next 10 years.
- Neil Armstrong

* Any idiot can face a crisis, its day to day living that wears you out.
- Anton Chekhov

* Never trust the advice of a man in difficulties.
- Easop

* No man or woman who pursues an ideal in his or her own ways is without enemies.

* If i'd had some set idea of a finish line, don't you think i would have crossed it years ago ?
- Bill Gates

* The only limit to your impact is your imagination and your commitment.

* Scratch a pessimist and you find often a defender of privilage.

* Everything comes to those who wait...except a cat.

* As we look into the century ahead, leaders are those who empower others.
- Bill Gates

* Democracy means we can have anything we want, and at the same time we end up with exactly what we deserve.
- edward albee

* Everyone, when there's a war in the air, learns to live in a new element - falsehood.
- some dramatist

* It is an illusion that youth is happy. An illusion of those who have lost it.
- Audrey Hepburn

* Those who play with cats must expect to be scratched.

* The ache for home lives in all of us, the safe place where we can go as we are and not be questioned.
- maya angelou

* people sleep peacefully in their beds at night only because rough man stand ready for violence on their behalf.
- george orwell

* A boo is a lot louder than cheering. If you hear 10 people cheering and 1 booing, all you hear is the booing.
- lance armstrong

* Where we love is our home, home that our feet may leave but not our hearts.

* The man who has no problems is out of the game.

* The older you get the stronger the wind gets and its always in your face.

Rules and Regulations !!

Females Rules and Regulations

1. Don't ever lie to us, we always find out.
2. We don't enjoy talking dirty to you as much as you enjoy listening.
3. Don't say you understand when you don't.
4. Girls are petty, get over it.
5. You don't have PMS; don't act like you know what it's like.
6. Saying something sweet might get you off the hook; doing something sweet will always get you off the hook.
7. If you talk about having a big dick, we know you don't.
8. Zit's happen to everyone. Yes, Mr. Perfect, even to you.
9. We don't like it when you act like Mr Big; we like it when you are Mr Big.
10.A system in your car only impresses your homeboys.
11. No matter what you say, your ex girlfriend is a pig.
12. It's good to be sensitive, sometimes.
13. If you did something wrong or even if you didn't, apologize.
14. Be spontaneous, dinner and a movie won't always cut it.
15. We are self-conscious by nature, we can't help it.
16. We are drama queens.
17. Fashion police do exist.
18. Don't ask us to give head; if you are nice you just might get it.
19. We absolutely do not care about monster trucks, or anything else you and your friends talk about, like: how much you know about the video games, porn, computers, Star Wars, etc.
20. Hugs and kisses must be given at all times.
21. We don't shave our legs every day, get over it.
22. Don't make bets about us, we always find out.
23. Shave - no matter how cool you think it looks, we hate it.
24. Even if you think it is cool to burp, fart, or emit other strange gases from your body, it's not.
25. Don't compare our breasts with Brittany Spear's, hers are fake.
26. It is not cool to shoot snot rockets.
27. We are beautiful, but make-up helps. (All girls love makeup, do not call us prissy or tell us we worry to much about the way we look for wearing it.)
28. We will always think we are fat so humor us and tell us we aren't.
29. It doesn't make you look cool to make fun of someone else.
30. If you ever beat us in a sport or game, it's always because you cheated, even if you didn't.

MeN's RULES & REGULATIONS

the guys' side of the story

Please note these are all numbered '1' ON PURPOSE!

1. Men are NOT mind readers.
1. Learn to work the toilet seat.You're a big girl. If it's up, put it down.We need it up, you need it down.You don't hear us complaining about you leaving it down.
1. Sunday sports It's like the full moon Or the changing of the tides. Let it be.
1. Crying is blackmail.
1. Ask for what you want.Let us be clear on this one : Subtle hints do not work! Strong hints do not work!Obvious hints do not work! Just say it!
1. Yes and No are perfectly acceptable answers to almost every question
1. Come to us with a problem only if you want help solving it. That's what we do.Sympathy is what your girlfriends are for.
1. Anything we said 6 months ago is inadmissible in an argument. In fact, all comments become Null and void after 7 Days.
1. If you think you're fat, you probably are. Don't ask us.
1. If something we said can be interpreted two ways and one of the ways makes you sad or angry, we meant the other one.
1. You can either ask us to do something Or tell us how you want it done. Not both.If you already know best how to do it, just do it yourself.
1. Whenever possible, Please say whatever you have to say during commercials.
1. Christopher Columbus did NOT need directions and neither do we.
1. ALL men see in only 16 colours, like Windows default settings.Peach, for example, is a fruit, not A colour. Pumpkin is also a fruit. We have no idea what mauve is.
1. If it itches, it will be scratched.We do that.
1. If we ask what is wrong and you say 'nothing,' We will act like nothing's wrong.We know you are lying, but it is just not worth the hassle.
1. If you ask a question you don't want an answer to, Expect an answer you don't want to hear.
1. When we have to go somewhere, absolutely anything you wear is fine... Really .
1. Don't ask us what we're thinking about unless you are prepared to discuss such topics as baseball or Motor sports.
1. You have enough clothes.
1. You have too many shoes.

Love is priceless !

Why do they give discounts only on those items which i don't like, i was thinking while roaming in a mall to kill time on sunday. This made me remember the reality of life that the price for something you love is variable, most of the times more than you can afford.
Anyway i saw a fancy sandle and asked the attendent something about it (that i don't remember now). And surprise ! That guy got irritated as i interrupted him while conversing with his colleague. "Its sunday and everything's written on the product, don't bother us" was his reply to a potential customer.

Majaa ni Raja

Prakruti ni yaad ma etlo khovayelo rahu chhu

Weekend ma pan Purani jeans paherine faru chhu..

Koi kahi do Samay ne, ke have thi ulto chale..

Somvaar ni raat divas thi pahela aave!

Jab bhi Cigarette jalti hai...

Dhen tanan...

Its the beginning of a new battle. The enemy is temptation. Temptation to have it the last time. Time seems to have freezed at the point where i am having the last cigarette of my life. The floor of my bedroom has become the show-case of my failed attempts. The rising size of the Pile of newspapers thrown carelessely in the corner means dates are changing continuously and i am not missing any date with my slim and smoky companion. Smooching is all she wants all the time !

Is it that hard to quit french-kissing the curveless tiny stick of a thing ? Never was there any doubt in my mind about quitting but the fact that i am learning to be carefree has made it tough unexpectedly.

So this is it. Some other temptation more irresistible than the slim stick, more seductive than its bitter smoke is the only way out i can see.

Where there's a will there's a way but i don't want to go the WILL'S way !

Inspiration or no inspiration, i bet i will quit smoking before September end.

Miles to go forever !

She'll let you in her house
If you come knockin' late at night
She'll let you in her mouth
If the words you say are right
If you pay the price
She'll let you deep inside
But there's a secret garden she hides.


She'll let you in her car
To go drivin' round
She'll let you into the parts of herself
That'll bring you down
She'll let you in her heart
If you got a hammer and a vise
But into her secret garden,
don't think twice.


You've gone a million miles
How far'd you get
To that place where you can't remember
And you can't forget
She'll lead you down a path
There'll be tenderness in the air
She'll let you come just far enough
So you know she's really there
She'll look at you and smile
And her eyes will say
She's got a secret garden
Where everything you want
Where everything you need
Will always stay
A million miles away.

a poem i reproduced !

The endless cycle of idea and inaction,
Endless investigations, endless experiments,
Brings no knowledge to me, stillness remains as it is ;
Knowledge of world, and ignorance of the relations,

Knowledge of fun, but trust in only pain ;
Where is the Life I have lost in living?
Where is the fun I have lost in knowledge?
Inspired from

Choruses From The Rock (T.S.Elliot)

Lost Me !

Look at me
You may think you see
Who I really am
But you'll never know me
Every dayIt's as if I play a part
Now I seeIf I wear a mask
I can fool the world
But I cannot fool my heart
Who is that girl I see
Staring straight back at me?
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?
I am now
In a world where I
Have to hide my heart
And what I believe in
But somehow
I will show the world
What's inside my heart
And be loved for who I am
Who is that girl I see
Staring straight back at me?
Why is my reflection
Someone I don't know?
Must I pretend that I'm
Someone else for all time?
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?
There's a heart that must be
Free to fly
That burns with a need to know
The reason why
Why must we all conceal
What we think, how we feel?
Must there be a secret me
I'm forced to hide?
I won't pretend that I'm
Someone else for all time
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?

Origin of Ear rings !

About the origin of earring, there is a folk legend. In the ancient, there was a good-looking girl, who suffered from ophthalmopathy, quickly she couldn’t see anything. One day, a famous doctor passed by, seeing the beautiful girl suffering from the bitterness of blind, he couldn’t help sympathizing with her, and then he pierced respectively on both sides of her earlobe with an acupuncture needle. It is very strange that the mysterious needle made the girl look again. In order to commemorate the graciousness of the famous doctor, the girl asked the silversmith to purify a pair of earring, and wore them on specially. From then on, the girl became more beautiful and enviable. The thing got abroad. Women all imitated the girl until now.


Originally, piercing the ears can clear vision is a kind of “the ear-acupuncture therapy” in ancient times of our country, the modern medicine had proved that piercing on the center earlobe could prevent and control each kind of ophthalmopathy, especially benefit the nearsightedness.Perhaps for the earring have both decoration and treatment functions, since the ancient times it has been enjoyed by women. And in those times the earring was made daintily, pursue elegance, most were made of gold, silver, jade and so on. Generally speaking, the big volume earrings appear attractive and romantic, and the transparent pure earring pendant makes women delicate and refine, earrings canimprove people’s temperament, on this point there is no doubt.

Stealing again..but seems like my thoughts !

So I stood apart from the crowd, reflecting on how the simplest and best things in this world were forever denied me. Love, friendship, laughter. It's not that I felt lost; how can you feel lost when there's nowhere to be, nobody to go with?
Don't feel sorry for me. Some people just feel this way. Peripheral. Once, though, I was alive.
His name is Richard, and he was my world for a year and a half. From the night I met him outside a Subways to that last, regret-filled phone call when we both stopped trying, he was my heartbeat, the sun in my sky. His home was my home; his friends, my friends. Every adventure in life we went through together, holding hands and running for the hell of it.
I’ve been over it time and time again in my head. Trying to pinpoint the exact moment our sandcastle fell apart. My best guess is that it happened at the most trivial of moments, as these things do - when we were choosing new curtains for the bedroom. We’d both had a rough couple of weeks; stress at work, in his case, and an ill nephew in mine. I suggested a few light colours, but he didn’t like them. So I suggested a few darker ones, but he didn’t like them. So I suggested a few brighter ones, and he didn’t like those either. I suggested he make his mind up what he fucking well DID want, or at least give me a fucking HINT... and he gave me the strangest look, like he didn’t know me, and he said “There are much more important things for us to decide.”
I cried myself to sleep that night.
That was months before the last thread broke, and there were plenty of good times after that day, but the memory of what he said came back to me after every fight, every angry word, every disappointed look. My paranoia wouldn’t let it rest. Sometimes I’d catch him looking at me pensively, as if trying to work something out, and I’d ask him what he was trying to decide. He never answered.
When a relationship ends, especially if it’s one you were completely invested in, at some point the inevitable question ‘what could I have done differently?’ comes up. What if I’d tried harder, been better, done the washing up more often? What if I’d spiced things up in the bedroom? What if I’d suggested blinds?
Sometimes these things just don’t work out. I moved out, ostensibly to ‘get some space’, but really because I couldn’t understand him and it was tearing me up inside. After two weeks we gave up. I moved away, started again with new friends, and a new flat that didn’t carry his fingerprints and his scent. But I haven’t been the same since. I watch couples in love with detached disinterest, knowing that I can’t ever feel that way again. I watch people laughing and joking in pubs, in parks, light-hearted and hopeful, and privately wonder how long it is until I move on again and get a new dead-end job somewhere else.
I can’t live with them, I can’t love like them, and I can’t feel the warmth of Richard’s skin on mine.
So I stand apart from the crowd. Don’t feel sorry for me, some people just feel this way.

Learning to be Selfish !!!

The time will come
when, with elation,
you will greet yourself arriving
at your own door, in your own mirror,
and each will smile at the other's welcome,
and say, sit here. Eat.
You will love again the stranger who was your self.
Give wine. give bread. Give back your heart
to itself, to the stranger who has loved you
all your life, whom you ignored
for another, who knows you by heart.
Take down the love letters from the bookshelf,
the photographs, the desperate notes,
peel your own image from the mirror.
Sit. Feast on your life.

Black and White Colours !!

the proposal !!

As has been the fate for years, lets see whats to try this time !

So this is it, always had a feeling but now its out !!

And this is where everything started...

Visual Haiku for Today !

After a long nap,
the cat yawns, rises, and goes out
looking for love.







The Old Tree
leaning
against old
window
both are
tired..








Alone at
last
wonder
where
everyone
is.